The Midlife Mumma

As I sit here drinking my coffee, I ponder of my recent life decisions and how I ended up here.

Solo parenting, unemployed, back in the rental market and experiencing all the joys of what mid life brings.

Don’t get me wrong, my life is also better than it ever has been!

I made the decision 5 years ago to completely change my life, and boy has it changed.

From the age of 14 I was in my first relationship which saw me become a mother at 17. By 19 I had the responsibility of loving two little humans, and had no idea how to love myself.

Fats forward to where I am now. Four children, 43 years old and finally working out who I am.

I have been single now for five years after breaking the toxic relationship cycle and what I referred to as my series of unfortunate events.

My life came crashing down all around me, some people would refer to this as a “tower moment” or “the big awakening” I like to call it my rebirth.

The last five years I have spent healing and exploring the new life as I know it. Thinking it would be easy to re enter the property marke, I sold my coastal home and I moved to Sydney for three years. No one could have really predicted the market boom that Covid brought, after all the experts had predicted crash in the market.

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etermined to rebuild my mind, body, soul, spirit and finances I dedicated myself to work in an attempt to build my bank account and save a house deposit .

I climbed the corporate ladder, worked my butt off, and was headed straight for a breakdown.

So just before Christmas last year I left my toxic job, because if I didn’t I may not be here anymore.

I have now been pit go work for 2.5 months, I am at the end of the little savings I had worked so hard to save. I have applied for over 1000 jobs, sat many interviews, ghosted by companies, rejected by many others, or disappointed when I sit the interview because the job they advertised what not the job we discussed in the interview.

So here I am. Drinking my coffee, at a pivotal moment in my life, no idea, no real plan, and seeing where life pulls me now.

It’s time to reconnect with myself, I believe this is all happy for a reason, the reason I’m sure will unfold soon.

Until then, I am giving myself a much needed little break.

Much love,

Bex